"Perhaps on the whole, embarrassment and perplexity are a kind of natural accompaniment to life and movement; and it is better to be driven out of your senses with thinking which of the two things you ought to do than to do nothing whatever, and be utterly uninteresting to all the world." -Margaret Oliphant

Today began the search for a job. I went to Kinkos, printed off 21 resumes and began my quest for employment. I ventured from Columbus Circle, down 9th ave (finding my way to restaurant row of course) and came to a close around Times Square. What a day of self discoveries! Here are a few:

1. It takes a lot of guts to job hunt. There is a huge difference between applying to jobs online, and walking from restaurant to store inquiring about openings, only to be constantly rejected. 

2. The occasional interview makes all the previous rejections (including a few of the next ones) all worth it.

3. Shame on my prideful demeanor. I've always felt that I was the type of person who didn't have an issue with pride. I know that God give's me all my blessings/talents and it is to Him that I am eternally grateful. Then why, upon noticing a small 'burger joint,' did it take me 5 minutes of internal debating to enter and inquire about their open positions? I am not above flipping burgers, nor is anyone else in this world. I have a college diploma- so what? I was just working at a fine dining establishment- so what? One of my professors from college, Greg Funaro, used to tell us that we weren't entitled to anything. It's true. Where did this sense of entitlement come from? Shame on me.

4. The embarrassment factor. As I approached the Applebee's located at Broadway and 50th I felt a voice inside me say "go inside and apply!" which was quickly challenged by another voice that said "applebees? What are you, in high school?" I fought off the second voice and stepped inside to apply. Within 30 minutes I was taking an aptitude test, and 30 minutes later I was hired. I loved the environment. It was easy going, good music playing, and just seemed like fun. "What's so wrong with applebees? " I asked myself. I knew I would be embarrassed around all my friends who work in fine dining- New York style restaurants. Why should I be ashamed that I enjoy working at silly chain restaurants instead of stuffy eloquent ones? The answer : I shouldn't.

Don't get too excited. The job offer was only for a hostess position (in which I would make $8 an hour...I can't live off of that) and it doesn't begin for another 2 weeks- meaning I am still on the lookout for a job. I accepted the offer, with the hopes that I will soon find something else. The search presses on tomorrow!

1 comment :

  1. I decided that you should write a book. I don't know what you should write about...but I would read it. Seriously, think about it. You just write so eloquently...love it. I'm glad you found a job...I love applebee's!