1.16.2010

Here I come!!

I've just spent the past 6 months planning for Graduate School auditions. 

I got all the paper work together, recruited old professors for recommendations, spent ridiculous amounts of hours deliberating over which monologues to choose.

 It all lead me to the past two days where I spent the entire morning/afternoon auditioning. 

I took a break from acting for a year to get my life in order. I needed the opportunity to find myself. I needed to get a check on my spirituality, physicality, and beliefs about the world in general. In short- I needed a break from pretending to be other people, so I could find out who I am. Over the year and a half that I've lived in NYC, I've learned a lot about myself. In fact, I'm kind of sick of myself ;) 

Although this year 'off' actually sent me spiraling in the opposite direction, I am so thankful for the decision I made. I wouldn't change it for anything.

This brings us back to the past few days. I've spent all this time preparing and was actually extremely excited for the chance to have a real audition. 

I felt great about both of them. Should I win an academy award for the performances? No. Have I made progress since graduating from college... probably not. However, I got back out there and did it. I felt like the underdog, the injured sports player that people weren't expecting back out on the court. I felt wonderful.

I didn't even get a call back. Not one. Which means all 6 months of work really were for nothing, right? (I still have one audition for one school left- but with my track record right now I'm slightly predicting the future.) 

Wrong. I am back in the game now. I still have a lot of things to figure out, a lot of things to improve, and a heck of a lot of things to trudge through before I find success. However, you can believe me when I say.... watch out world- Courtney 2010 is coming!!


"Impossible is nothing. 
Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
 Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.
 Impossible  is not a declaration. It's a dare. 
Impossible is potential. 
Impossible is temporary. 
Impossible is nothing."

2 comments :

  1. Good luck! You have an amazing attitude. I love it. :o)

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  2. I agree with Amanda, you have a great outlook on everything. And that will definitely lead to success! I love you and I know that you are amazing at what you do!

    ps- Just so you know, I am glad you have a blog! I read it every time, even if I don't comment!

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